"The thoughts thunk with idle time"

Idle time is truly the devil's playground.
This morning I woke up, not with thankful prayers on my mind like I usually do. This morning I woke up thinking and I quote, " I have nothing to do. Maybe I should throw away the future that I have coming to me and go and kidnap the girl that did me wrong last month."
That's crazy right?
But in my world of insanity that's my reoccurring thought.

A man's greatest hell is a bad woman.
Pimps, Thugs and hooligans
Maybe their worlds were birthed by the heart break of
a bad woman.
I love my woman but I hate my bitch
It's a fool's thought who thinks his world will change
once he becomes rich.
Kidnap, rape and murder
The inspired thoughts
from my love and hate for
Her.
Am I less of a man because I blame a woman
but who will stand up and clap
If I say it was I who allowed that.
Hear my plea.
Would my life be better if it were only me?
Or should I be grateful to know that the lord loves
And so life is not ended with
suffering and misery.
Or is it my foolish pleasures and insanity's love
for idle time that keeps me stagnated and entertaining
his company.
My brother told me,
"If money is the root of all evil, then a bitch has a quarter on every dollar."
But then I look at my daughters
and know that they have no quarters
on any man's dollars.
It's d'evils and a foolish man's pride
that keeps him pulling his hair
and wanting to holler.